Six years after the death of beloved British actor Alan Rickman, his innermost thoughts are published in a book of his diary entries.
Some of the entries expose his true thoughts on his fellow Harry Potter actors and how he secretly battled prostate cancer while filming the franchise.
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In October, the Entries Compilation will be released, summarizing the 26 volumes that Rickman kept from 1992 until his death in 2016.
In the run-up, The Guardian has published several excerpts from the upcoming explosive book Madly Deeply: The Diaries of Alan Rickman, due to be published by Henry Holt & Company in October.
The actor, best known for playing Severus Snape in Harry Potter, died on January 14, 2016 at the age of 69 from pancreatic cancer.
Despite being best known as the calculation wizard, Rickman wanted out of the role after the first two movies.
“Speaking to (agent) Paul Lyon-Maris about HP (Happy Potter) leaving, which he believes will happen,” the entry dated Dec. 4, 2002, began.
“But here we are back in the project-collision area. Reiterating no more HP. They don’t want to hear it,” he wrote on January 5, 2006.
Years later, the actor recalls saying “yes to HP 5. The feeling is neither up nor down. The argument that he wins is the one that says, ‘Go through with it. It’s your story.’”
‘No more HP’
This came weeks after Rickman underwent secret surgery to remove his entire prostate as part of his cancer treatment.
“Preoperative. This is like a movie set. Nothing seems real,” the Die Hard star wrote.
“Remembering nothing but that painkiller high up in the recovery room. Caring and caring people.”
Although Rickman wanted to leave Harry Potter, it seems his conversations with author JK Rowling encouraged him to stay, as she revealed top-secret details about her character’s then-unknown fate.
In 2007 he wrote: “Snape dies heroically, Potter describes him to his sons as one of the bravest men he has ever known and names his son Albus Severus.
“This was a true rite of passage. A little information from Jo Rowling seven years ago, Snape loved Lily, he gave me a cliff to cling to.”
The late actor recalls his first meeting with Rowling, who “nervously” told him a few details about “Snape’s background” to help him with his character development.
“Talking with her is talking to someone who lives these stories, not invents them,” he said in 2000.
Rickman goes on to narrate his thoughts on his fellow Harry Potter actors, particularly Daniel Radcliffe and Emma Watson.
On May 2, 2003, Rickman wrote of the title character, actor Radcliffe: “I still don’t think he’s really an actor, but he’ll definitely direct/produce.”
A month later, on July 30, the actor said of the then-child actors, “These children need direction. They don’t know their lines and Emma’s (Watson) diction is sometimes from this side of Albania.”
‘Shocked and devastated’
Rickman’s terminal cancer diagnosis was known only to his close confidants.
In 2015, the actor suffered a minor stroke and learned that he had developed pancreatic cancer.
The actor’s unexpected death shocked his colleagues and the world with Rowling tweeting at the time: “There are no words to express how shocked and devastated I am to learn of the death of Alan Rickman. He was a magnificent actor and a wonderful man.
“My thoughts are with Rima and the rest of Alan’s family. We have all lost a great talent. They have lost part of their heart,” she said.
Radcliffe posted a statement on Google+ calling Rickman “one of the best actors I’ll ever work with and one of the best too.”
“Alan was extremely kind, generous, self-deprecating and funny,” he said.
“And certain things, obviously, became even funnier when he delivered them with his unmistakable double bass.”
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